“For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast.”
Ephesians 2:8-9 NKJV
Grace at twilight
As I enter the latter parts of the day, I become very reflective, as I consider all that has transpired. My body is becoming tired, my thoughts begin to drift, and if I focus too much on the things that bring me down, the guard can come off. All too often sin is lurking. It is in this weak place that I must consider the grace of God.
In the twilight of my day, I am reminded that I brought nothing to act of salvation, but my contrite heart. The work was done by Jesus when He went to the cross. It is truly a gift from God, considered and prepared from the foundation of the world. This day was known to God: the good things that happened and the bad.
I know that each moment of my day is reliant on the Holy Spirit having free rein in my life. I need to hang on to Him, as He holds me.
Periodically, I am told that I am amazing, or that I am a wonderful man. I pray with consistency provided by a desire that is available for all believers, if they want it.
I know that I am a sinner, capable of anything if not for Jesus. I know the true nature of my heart, and I remember what I was like before the Holy Spirit began to woo me, and that little Wednesday night class began to cry out for my salvation so many years ago.
“This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief. However, for this reason I obtained mercy, that in me first Jesus Christ might show all longsuffering, as a pattern to those who are going to believe on Him for everlasting life.”
I Timothy 1:15-16 NKJV
God was certainly long suffering in my case, as I resisted the pull of the Holy Spirit for years. If not for my praying mother, I would fallen away completely, trapped in sin and destined for hell. I often wonder what my life would be like had I not said yes on that Resurrection Sunday in 1998. I really doubt I would have survived.
When I am struggling, and the evil one is telling me how awful I am, I am reminded of the grace of God. I am most certainly awful, but I serve a great God, who has the power to make the evil things of the world good. I remember who I was and and how the Lord has changed me.
Brothers and sisters, you may be heading into this twilight, having failed today. You might have given into a sin that you have sworn you would never do again. You might be feeling the weight of many struggles, and peace seems fleeting.
Know this: God is for you. No matter what comes nothing can cause the Lord to love you less, and nothing can separate you from His love.
“For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
Romans 8:38-39 NKJV
God has given us His word to guide us. It has the power to search our inward parts, and help us to cut through all the things that are infecting us from within. God is the ultimate surgeon, cutting into the fight places, to remove just what ails us.
As we seek Him in His word, we are rewarded with His rest, a place where we can cease from striving and know that He is God.
I am thankful when the sun goes down, because it means that I will be soon able to sleep, resting from my day, with the understanding the Lord will be there in the morning, whether it be with me here on earth, or me with Him in Heaven.
The word of God gives us strength and a rock solid place to stand for the Lord.
“Let us therefore be diligent to enter that rest, lest anyone fall according to the same example of disobedience. For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are naked and open to the eyes of Him to whom we must give account.”
Hebrews 4:11-13 NKJV
Let us find our peace in this twilight, finding joy in the completion of another day. Rest easy, my people! Sleep well.