“How can a young man cleanse his way? By taking heed according to Your word. With my whole heart I have sought You; Oh, let me not wander from Your commandments! Your word I have hidden in my heart, That I might not sin against You. Blessed are You, O LORD! Teach me Your statutes.”
Psalms 119:9-12 NKJV
I went through my younger days thinking I was virtuous. I could quickly count up the ways I was a good person. I relied upon my Good deeds to be evidence of my being upstanding. I was very filled with pride.
I didn’t keep an accurate counting of my sins. I sought to ignore or explain away the things that made me a sinner. I tried to hide the most heinous things about me from view.
Then came salvation in Jesus Christ. Suddenly all the sin that I had tried to hide from myself and others, was out in the open. I remember when the conviction came, I could see the evil in me. I came to realize that there was no good thing in me. My best, became my worst, as what I thought was of value was simply refuse.
“But we are all like an unclean thing, And all our righteousnesses are like filthy rags; We all fade as a leaf, And our iniquities, like the wind, Have taken us away.”
Isaiah 64:6 NKJV
The revelation of my sinfulness sent me into a tail spin, as all I thought was gain, became loss. The word of God slowly became my tether, as I sought to know Him more. My counted on the good in me less and less and sought the righteousness of the Christ.
Each day is a battle as I seek to hide more and more of word in my heart, that it crowd out the darkness and replace it with light. It is more than a matter of reading more of it, it is the application. I surrender my will to the Lord, moment by moments and allow the word to permeate all of me. My fleshly desires won’t die easily. It is still moment by moment, and the war will continue until the Lord takes me home.
I have become intentional in seeking after God early. I make it a priority, as sin is always crouching at the door. As I go out into the world, I need all the fortification I can have, as the situations I face are not merely flesh and blood. There are truly supernatural forces against me.
“Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God;”
Ephesians 6:10-17 NKJV
At my best, I am no match for all that is aimed at my heart.
The more that I read and meditate on the word, the more it cleanses me and keeps me from sin. I desire nothing inhibit my ability to share the Gospel. I die to self daily as I live to serve as an ambassador.
The cleaning process is never over. Just as we clean our homes daily, so must we seek the cleansing and washing of the word every day. I urge you, brothers and sisters to open that wonderful cleanser, sprinkle it in your life, and let the Holy Spirit scrub away!
Lord, wash me anew that I reflect you!