““For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.”
John 3:16 NASB
God so loved…
I have to admit that I have not been one who has been loved. Circumstances in my life have, for most of my life made me seemingly difficult to approach. I have, for my own comfort, gone through life very much alone. I offer little freely, as I am a very private person. In my past, I was a locked safe with no combination.
People have a hard time with people like me and seek to fill in the gaps with what they think they know. Life has been difficult, as reality runs into projection, truth encounters legend. My adulthood was full of the deepest loneliness, as I sought to make my world smaller and smaller, to limit the pain. Love was for others.
Then came Jesus.
He loved me where I was, wrapped up tight as a drum in my cocoon. When He entered my life, He slowly moved in and began to loosen the the bindings around my heart. So much tension in my life began to drift away, as my focus was more on Him and less on me.
I marveled at the love that He has for me, that I had never experienced before. Once bound, I was now free. I found that I could release feelings of isolation that had so marked my life up to that point.
God so loved ___________
God so loved Bernie, that He gave His only begotten Son… I stand amazed when I consider the cross and what it cost. Jesus left Heaven to live a life of poverty, walk the road of rejection, then suffer and die for my sins. He was buried, and He rose again.
In Him, I became a new creation. I will confess that the earliest steps in this new life were fraught with fear, as I slowly let go of all the things I relied on for a emotional security. Trust in God replaced trust in self, and God has proven to be far more reliable. I let myself down often, but God is always true.
There are times when the darkness attacks, and the old perimeter defenses begin to come up. Jesus steps in to bring peace. I can almost feel His embrace in those moments, as His presence is intense. I can’t find the words to describe it, nor would I even try.
Bernie so loved…
The love of Jesus fills me, so mu so, that I cannot contain it. I had a difficult time loving others in the past, or even caring, for that matter. Now, I have a deep burden for others, even the ones who have hurt me. Love has become my first reference when I make contact with others. That alone is a miracle of epic proportions.
The old, hateful man still lurks in the background, the man full of memories of past hurts, that can easily turn into a desire to hurt others. I am reminded of the passage above and I remember: God so loved me.
Our world is in need of the love of God today. I am praying for all the shut ins like myself, who are going through this alone, many who don’t have the company of God.
I urge you, brothers and sisters, pray for people, show the love of God. God is showing His light through earthen vessels, into a world in the darkness of quarantine.
Remember, God so loved you!