“Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path.”
Psalms 119:105 NKJV
I am have a melancholy personality. It personalities had colors, mine would be very deep blue, almost black.
I shudder at the darkness at times. It scares me so much as I fear what could come of it. Before I started walking with Jesus, the darkness would come on quickly and all would come to a stop. Dark thoughts would fill my mind.
Solitude was the best way I could think of to deal with it at that time. I found solo activities that took my mind to lighter shades. I used to binge read books as an escape from of the melancholy. Sometimes the darkness took me to dangerous places I will not describe. I praise God that I am still alive. In the darkest of days it was hard to find the path.
Now my path is lit.
As I move through my life in Christ I have the safety of a Jesus and I can see clearly now. On those melancholy days I turn to the things that bring light into my darkness.
Music moves me deeply. I put on some worship music and God’s Holy Spirit banishes the darkness and floods me with light! I have seen my mood change radically as I listen. Many a bad day has been made better.
I am more intentional about opening God’s word everyday. I get up early enough that I am able to read it and take my time, giving my heart a chance to marinate in it. His word not only lights my path, it defines it for me. The direction of my my life has greatly changed since the days of darkness. I am see other people in the Bible and how He has directed their paths in the service of the Gospel.
Interscessory prayer is also a big part of it. When I pray for others I am less stuck in my own head. I am able to get outside myself and care for others, developing empathy as I pray for their needs. I also make it a point to fellowship with other believers. Sharing the struggle takes some of the weight of the darkness off me.
God’s word is surely a light until my path. The light of Jesus fills me and the darkness has no where to hide.
Seek the light of Jesus today!